Can I be...

...a REBEL and post some Little Happies on a Wednesday (Update: Just realized it's actually Thursday...hence the spilled marbles below)?!?!?!

Selfishly, I need the distraction. I am exactly six days away from the dreaded/highly anticipated POAS moment, and suffice to say I am slowly losing my marbles one by one.

Accurate.

Anyway, amidst the neuroses and craziness and shenanigans, there have been a lot of happies this week! So, Stephanie, forgive me, but I'm rollin' out a few late ones... to help me take my mind off this roller coaster of emotions, AND to (hopefully) spread a little mid-week cheer.

1. CREEPER SHOTS

Because isn't that what "Over the Hill" birthday parties or customized t-shirts or general embarrassment/spousal blackmail is all about? T always falls asleep on the train home, and is usually catchin' flies. I'm just biding my time, deciding what I want to do with all of these...glamour shouts. Love ya bug.

2. IMPROMPTU FUN

Tim and I went on a double date last weekend with another couple, and on our way home we decided to stop by Ober.weiss for some ice cream. I got the seasonal Blueberry Pie kid's scoop--YUM. And then, we noticed that there were chess tables set up. Guess what is one activity that, in our 3+ years of knowing each other, we have NEVER done together?! So, we battled it out. As you can see, T was super focused and SUPER competitive (per usual). I tend to be a bit more relaxed, until things start heatin' up! And they did, big time. Battle for the 'check mate' was ON. I don't want to say who won. It's just...whatever.

3. FREE LIBRARY!

What in the what?! There is a 'free library' on a nearby corner, full of books that you can borrow whenever you want! First of all, how cute? Second of all, what an AWESOME idea! I don't read nearly enough anymore. And so, I borrowed "Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace With Marriage" by Elizabeth Gilbert (author of "Eat Pray Love," though I wasn't really a fan of that one). Ha. Because that's who I used to be...a skeptic! Ready to dig in and see what I can learn about my 'former self!' In exchange, I left them some random book called 'The Blonde Theory'...hope someone learns something from it?

4. CONFIRMATION!

This is a picture of me and my AWESOME Confirmandi from this past Monday, the day of her Confirmation into the great Roman Catholic Church! I was so so so honored and proud to be her sponsor, and to proudly present her to the Bishop as "Philomena"...who, eerily enough, is one of my patron saints. I hear you, God! And I am so thankful for the opportunity to share my faith with this awesome girl! The Mass was stunningly beautiful...brought me to tears, actually. An amazing gift, all around, and I felt very blessed to be a part of it (P.S. No judgment on the massive plate of nachos in front of me...well okay, judge if you must).

5. MAGNIFICAT

Per usual. I can't help sharing the ones that move me the most. I couldn't fit it all in a screenshot, but enjoy the text that I did capture. It is truly incredible, and inspirational to me. I hope you feel inspired, too!

6. THE ICE CREAM TRUCK

It's official...SPRING HAS SPRUNG!!! Last night, while walking to my parent's house (and PRAISE GOD that I actually live close enough to my family that I can walk over, something I dreamed of for so long!) I saw, and heard, something that made my heart overflow with happiness--the old-fashioned ice cream truck that I loved so much as a girl (who am I kidding, as an adult, too)! I didn't have any cash, so I couldn't get a Choco Taco...but you better believe that, next time, I'll be ready. WELCOME HOME, WARM WEATHER! We missed you so.

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That's a wrap on the happies, for now. On to the semi-stressful/semi-cool stuff...

SYMPTOM UPDATE:

I have literally no idea what is happening with my body. One second I feel totally normal, and the next, I am a mess of crazy potential-pregnancy symptoms. I won't get super into the intimate details, but suffice to say, I may have had implantation pains/spotting last Friday...which would put me at only 4dpo, which, I know, seems way too early. But when I told Dr. C, he told me that it was not impossible. If I end up not being PG, then what was the spotting about? Hard to say, but we'll cross that bridge when we get to it. I have all but eliminated mid-cycle spotting, which makes this especially curious. 

Also, food tastes weird this week. Symptom of the progesterone? Who knows.

Also, SUPER tired. But wait, I'm always super tired. Again, who knows.

Also, sore. Could be because I'm always bumping into corners and walls. Another who knows.

ALSO, some nausea here and there, lots of cramping, soreness in key places, Creighton-related symptoms, etc. But as of right now, it's all a big-fat WHO KNOWS. And I hate that. But I guess I also kind of like it...for now.

I had a P+7 ultrasound this Monday, and Dr. C said that I definitely definitely ovulated...no LUF, a fear of mine, and "no reason to worry." He called this cycle "AWESOME," and told me that I just need to wait and see, and put all anxiety at the foot of the cross. I am trying. I am trying SO HARD! 

It doesn't help that...you know...Mother's Day is this Sunday. I am excited to celebrate with my cool mama, but I will be praying for all of you extra, as well. We are all mothers, spiritually or otherwise, and it is our day, too. You will never be far from my thoughts. Nor will my sweet girls. I wish they could celebrate with me on Sunday, but I know there will be far more celebrating happening where they are!

Would God bless me with good news so close to Mother's Day? Can I dream of a miracle that incredible? Should I get my hopes up, or expect the worst, and then the 'fall' won't hurt so badly?

I don't know. I don't know anything. My brain is soup. Can you tell?

Anyway, POAS happens next Wednesday, on a day when my husband is traveling for work. Please pray for me...for a miracle, if that is God's will. Or for the grace to accept that His plans are perfect, even if they do not line up with mine.

Sorry for the cuckoo post--one of those weeks.

SO MANY PRAYERS AND HUGS, FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU! Thanks for your prayers for me, too. I can feel them, and I appreciate them more than you know!!