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Guys, I am...absolutely...speechless.

Sorry for the late post...it took literally all day to track down my test result, but here it is: beta is 187, progesterone is TBD (they lost that sample...kewl). Since I'm only on CD28 of a 30-32 day cycle, the doctor says that the number is great.

Selfishly, I still need your prayers, if you don't mind!!!! 

I had a bit of tan/brown-ish CM when wiping this afternoon (SO SORRY for the TMI, I try to be delicate but I'm not sure how else to phrase that) and honestly, it is probably nothing, but emotionally I have been through the ringer this past year when it comes to all things symptom-related. I cannot get my heart rate down. I need to find a way to RELAX and trust that God is with me, right now, right this second. I know it's the truth, I just need to focus on it.

Thank you for your prayers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is an exciting time, and I know I need to rejoice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Any tips on how to relax would be GREATLY appreciated. I'm sorry there is not more to this post, I am just...a mix between shocked, nervous, ecstatic, and straight-up in denial. I can't believe it. It feels surreal, like some sort of joke. But it's not...and I have the test to prove it. 

The same month that I am chosen to receive Adopt-A-Blogger prayers...the same month that I consecrate myself to the Blessed Virgin, ON MOTHER'S DAY...this is not a coincidence.

God is so good.

Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. You all remain in my prayers, today and every day. This is only the beginning, but what a wonderful beginning it is.

**Update: Got an email from my doctor this morning (5/15)...my progesterone sample turned up after all, turns out the delay was because it had to be diluted. My progesterone is above 500; that's all he told me, no exact figure. For reference, the lowest my progesterone has ever been in early pregnancy was SIX. Holy cow. I'm not sure what to think, but the doctor said it was 'okay' (God bless my doc, but I can never read the tone of his emails...classic over-analyzer!!!). I am on some pretty strong progesterone supplements (lozenges, which seem to be the only form my body really responds to)--I guess they're working. Next betas are on Monday, and if, GOD WILLING, the numbers look good, I will start testing for Anticardolipin Antibodies (I suspect, although I tested negative for the condition, that I have had Anticardolipin Antibody Syndrome OF PREGNANCY in the past--I did not even know that existed, until my GI doctor alerted me to it. Thank God for wonderful doctors). Please continue to pray for me and the peanut, if it is not too much to ask...thank you, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart. I am so humbled by this gift and, well, I just wish I could find the right words to say...