Thawing
Merry belated Christmas, and Happy New Year! It's been a long, long, long time since my last post. There was a reason for that. I have been doing a LOT of work emotionally and spiritually over the course of these last five-ish months, and managing my grief has been a large part of that. Because this blog has so many memories associated with it, I took a step back to help myself heal. I am happy to report that, while I will never be fully "healed," I am feeling much better these days. Much more stable and spiritually grounded. But, then again, the journey is about to begin all over again.
Allow me to explain.
By the grace of God, both myself and Tim have found JOBS in Chicago. That's right, we are HOME!!!!!!!!!! I can't even begin to express how overjoyed we are. We have been home since October, and we are still adjusting to the large change. Large AMAZING change. Truly, truly amazing.
Tim has accepted a job as an Account Executive at a company that sells recruiting solutions to colleges and universities. I've accepted a job coordinating Marketing for a mid-sized law firm. We are both happy and enjoying getting settled.
In other huge and amazing news, we've purchased our first house! It's a lovely 3-bedroom/2-bath place about a mile and a half from my childhood home. We are absolutely thrilled--especially after living with my family for over three months, haha!
Since returning to Chicago, my medical treatment has changed drastically. I was able to connect with a pair of Catholic Ob-gyn/R.E. and they have done so much for me. I've had a laporoscopy/hysteroscopy, followed by another hysteroscopy and subsequent testing. I found that I do, in fact, have endometriosis outside of my uterus--this was removed during my first surgery. I also had a large septum that was taking up over 30% of my uterine cavity--this was mostly removed during my second surgery. I've just finished a 30-day course of estrogen and a 15-day course of progesterone to create new tissue, and now I'm preparing to start a 5-day course of Clomid with accompanying blood tests and ultrasounds. Wow, right? It's been a lot.
I was upset--upset that my doctors in Minnesota misdiagnosed me. Upset that I've been emotionally scarred by the trauma they could not prevent. Upset that, up until now, nothing has worked.
But now, my faith is renewed. It is possible that these problems they've discovered are the reasons for my losses. I am trying my hardest to stay positive, because that's the only way to be. Negativity has gotten me nowhere, that's for sure. So I'm lookin' up.
I'm home from work today. Windchills are about -45 degrees, the lowest in over 20 years. But after today, the ice will begin to thaw, and life will return to normal. I believe that. And I'm looking forward to it.
xoxo,
E
Allow me to explain.
By the grace of God, both myself and Tim have found JOBS in Chicago. That's right, we are HOME!!!!!!!!!! I can't even begin to express how overjoyed we are. We have been home since October, and we are still adjusting to the large change. Large AMAZING change. Truly, truly amazing.
Tim has accepted a job as an Account Executive at a company that sells recruiting solutions to colleges and universities. I've accepted a job coordinating Marketing for a mid-sized law firm. We are both happy and enjoying getting settled.
In other huge and amazing news, we've purchased our first house! It's a lovely 3-bedroom/2-bath place about a mile and a half from my childhood home. We are absolutely thrilled--especially after living with my family for over three months, haha!
Since returning to Chicago, my medical treatment has changed drastically. I was able to connect with a pair of Catholic Ob-gyn/R.E. and they have done so much for me. I've had a laporoscopy/hysteroscopy, followed by another hysteroscopy and subsequent testing. I found that I do, in fact, have endometriosis outside of my uterus--this was removed during my first surgery. I also had a large septum that was taking up over 30% of my uterine cavity--this was mostly removed during my second surgery. I've just finished a 30-day course of estrogen and a 15-day course of progesterone to create new tissue, and now I'm preparing to start a 5-day course of Clomid with accompanying blood tests and ultrasounds. Wow, right? It's been a lot.
I was upset--upset that my doctors in Minnesota misdiagnosed me. Upset that I've been emotionally scarred by the trauma they could not prevent. Upset that, up until now, nothing has worked.
But now, my faith is renewed. It is possible that these problems they've discovered are the reasons for my losses. I am trying my hardest to stay positive, because that's the only way to be. Negativity has gotten me nowhere, that's for sure. So I'm lookin' up.
I'm home from work today. Windchills are about -45 degrees, the lowest in over 20 years. But after today, the ice will begin to thaw, and life will return to normal. I believe that. And I'm looking forward to it.
xoxo,
E
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