The moment I've been waiting for...

Guys, the day has finally arrived. This morning I received my long-awaited POSITIVE pregnancy test! I won't post a picture, in case some of you out there are squeamish, but suffice to say I have more than one...in case you ever want to see.

So there IS such a thing as a mother's intuition! To be fair, I have had several false alarms over the past few months, but none would have fooled me quite like this one. For about two weeks now, I have been EXHAUSTED. If you know me, you know that I'm almost always tired, but this was a new brand of t-i-r-e-d...as in, I've been asleep around 9:30 most nights, much to Tim's dismay. I have also been sore...like, been-to-a-new-yoga-class-where-the-teacher-is-a-pretzel-and-you-are-not kind of sore. Back, arms, legs, face, head, you name it. I've also been STARVING. I mean, ate half-of-a-bag of Cheddar Horseradish potato chips (from TJ's, delish) followed by a chicken breast followed by a dozen pot stickers starving. Glad Tim wasn't home to see that. Anyway, there have been more symptoms, but I'll spare you. Just painting the picture that...for once in my life..."I knew it"...and I was right!

So okay, as most of you know, since I am only sharing this blog with close friends and family, I lost my first pregnancy back in February after one short month. Although it was a blighted ovum, which is essentially an undeveloped embryo, it was a life, a life that Tim and I created, and it was a very difficult loss. Many of you comforted me and supported me during this time, and know that I am so very grateful to you. Although I heard time and time again how "common" miscarriages are, it did not make mine any less painful. BUT--although I am a nervous nellie by nature, and even more nervous when experiences have fed my fears--I have decided to be wildly OPTIMISTIC about this little peanut. I know that nothing good comes from worrying, and so, I will try not to. Even when it is most difficult to hear, I do know that God certainly has a plan, and that He is Sovereign, and that He will work things out for me and my family in His own perfect way.

Moving on, I REALLY miss all of you. I guess I should have said that first, right?! Sorry, I am excited today, and not thinking clearly! I miss you, and I wish I could go through this pregnancy with you all by my side. By the time you're reading this, ideally, I will have already been pregnant for about three months. I want to keep this blog a secret until I receive the "all clear"--and Tim and I agreed to keep it a secret until we simply can't hide my (what I'm sure will be quite round and, well, big) belly anymore. But if you're interested in how I've been feeling, what's been going on, and how my "shape" has been changing, you can certainly start from the beginning. Which is right here. Oh, hello, here you are!