HALF-BAKED.

Hi everyone! It feels so strange to be sitting here and already half-baked with baby number two. Does time ever slow down? Probably not. I am savoring every single moment of this pregnancy, even as each one FLIES BY, and I just so, so, so very grateful to be exactly where I am, on this day, in this exact moment. Have I said it yet today? God is so, so, so very good.

But not every moment is bliss, to be sure. I have had several moments this week that have been a real struggle for one reason or another. Whether it is dealing with exhaustion, trying to balance Eileen's schedule with the rest of the world's, or trying my best to maintain interpersonal relationships, I do get worn down (and, at time, it takes embarrassingly little to bring me to that state). The point is, I don't want to gush and suggest that I live in a love bubble 24/7. I don't. Do I wish that I did? Sure, but life doesn't work like that. I struggle and fall down 100 times a day, and sometimes it takes me longer than it should to get back up. But when I do, I try to remind myself that GOD IS GOOD. God is good everyday, everyday God is good. Or something like that, right?! I'm rambling. But. This is what it looks like when you try to get all of your thoughts down during your toddler's 30-minute nap.

Cliffnotes version: I am weak. But God is good. He has blessed me, and all of us, so very much. When we have good days, God is good. When we have bad days, God is still good. We are blessed beyond what we deserve. And this knowledge alone can brighten up any bad day, if only a little.

So, okay!!! I am officially HALF-BAKED with a scheduled c-section date to prove it! May 31...can you stand it?! The OFFICIAL countdown has begun.

My cute little sunny, staring at the camera like a little skeleton jack-o-lantern!

My appointment this morning went well, praise God. I am up a little more in weight than I'd like to be, but I have no one to blame but myself for that. My baby's HB was 142 and he/she was measuring right on track and weighing in at around .75 lbs. Hard to believe that I have actually less than 20 weeks to go until I get to meet this bundle of joy. It still doesn't really seem real.

But you know what does seem very real? This little munchkin, who turns ONE in just over a week!!!!

Who, me?

Accidentally twinning this week. Oops!

Saying goodbye to her aunts until Spring break!

Who will let me sit on their head until Aunt Molly comes back?!

Opening fun packages.

Watching Barefoot Contessa upside down.

Sometimes she puts her hand on my arm while I read to her. Too cute. Had to document.

Playing, and...

...eating, always eating.

My sweet, sweet baby! Or, toddler I guess?! Where has the time gone? Will I always be asking that? Yes. Eileen will be one a week from Wednesday, and we will host her pink and gold birthday party that Saturday. Pictures to follow! Anyone want to place a bet on how many times I'll cry next week? Over/under 10?!

On to the bump stuff...

Casual bump, and...

Tried to "dress up" for date night, only to discover that next to nothing fits me anymore. HA.

How far along?  20 weeks, half-baked, and loving it!

Clothing? Breaking news...pair of maternity pants that I ordered DO FIT! YAY! Now, if only anything else did...

Stretch marks? Nothing new!

Sleep? Still waking up pretty much every hour. But, still "sleeping" so, I guess I shouldn't complain.

Best moment of this week? Increased movement, which I LOVE! Seeing Sunny on the big screen this morning, potentially for the last time until delivery!!!

Worst moment of this week? A bit stressed about this and that, but nothing I can't handle. More happy than anything else.

Miss anything? I mean...nah, I'm pretty ok.

Movement? Yes, definitely more than last week. But still not the "consistent" stuff of 3rd trimester of course. Loving the pops and wiggles, though! Have even seen a few faintly from the outside!

Symptoms? Sciatic pain, sore chest, headaches, subpar sleep, and awful terrible sinuses. Oh, and my hair is STILL falling out like crazy. I thought it would've slowed down by now and reversed, but not yet. My dr. is going to check my thyroid when I do my glucose test, but thinks this should correct itself soon (hopefully)!

Food cravings? Lemonade!!! French fries. Chili. And yesterday, was craving a big iced cinnamon roll. Did I mention I'm gaining weight?! Ha. 

Gender? Deep down, if I'm being honest, I think I'm leaning girl again. Still not feeling as sure as I was with Ei, but can't deny the girl vibes.

Labor Signs? No siree.

Belly button in or out? Slight outie. 

Wedding rings on or off? On for now.

Mood? Excited. Incredulous. Sleepy. Grateful. 

Rituals? Same ole :)

Milestones? Reaching half-baked status, and scheduling my c-section!!! 134 days to go!

Looking forward to? My baby's first birthday, and her first birthday party!!! My 24-week appointment on February 15! MY SUNNY'S BIRTHDAY!!!

That's all for now, guys. Until next time, have a blessed week.